January 25, 2016
Mi familia y amigos!
YOU ARE DOING JOSH’S TEMPLE WORK THIS WEEK!! That makes me so HAPPY and yet a little sad because I can’t be there. But I’m so thankful for you and this gospel!
This week was hard, I’m not going to lie. We currently have a couple of investigators which we are going to baptize soon but other than that, we’ve had no success. People just keep shutting the door on us. But it’s okay. From the heart, we LEARN and we learn to LOVE. This week will be better because I’m going to make it better… with a lot of faith and a lot of love in my heart.
My heart goes out to the people at home. EVERYONE who has made me the person I am today. I am so thankful to have everybody I know in my life and I’m thankful for all the trials I’ve had and still will have in my life.
For example, Josh… This week is hard because it reminds us of our dear brother and son. It reminds us of the sad times but also the happy. I was reading in my journal of the time when it was starting to get bad, and I wasn’t up to going to school that day. So I came home and found mom and dad, surrounding Josh in his bed, asking him questions. I joined in and remember us asking him about his time in France and Alaska, his favorite color—those type of questions, just trying to get him to talk because he was really drugged up that day. It was one of those bad days.
But I remember this part really clearly. It was when we asked Josh what his favorite song was. And of course he said there’s too many because there really is—no person has only one favorite song. But we asked him if he could just tell us one. And we couldn’t understand his answer, so we told him to sing it. And he did until I remembered what the song was and hurried and found it on my phone and played it. I clearly remember as this song played, “Coming in from the Cold”, tears rushed down Josh’s face, and then, of course, ours also. The reason he liked it so much was because of the lyric—“Why do you look so sad and forsaken? Don’t you know as one door closes, another one opens?" It’s about hope, a new day. I will never forget this memory ever because Josh gave us some truth from the words of Bob Marley. Right now it is hard. It’s hard because Josh is gone, and here the people’s doors are literally shutting in my face, but there’s always hope. Every day is a day closer to seeing Josh again and having someone ready to listen to this message of hope that this Gospel brings. I know I talk about HOPE a lot, but it’s what I know and can bear truth of.
This Gospel is so true and if we live it, we will be blessed. I’ve seen it in ALL of my investigators and in my own life. So many blessings have come from Josh’s death. It’s hard to say and think that, but it’s so true.
I have to go. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! And I WANT baby pics of Yoanna and Coleson’s baby!